6:50 p.m. - Wednesday, Feb. 12, 2003
boring.
my fingers are almost numb. my room is ridiculously cold. yeah this can't be good. and my feet are really cold too. but i'm content. i'm currently talking to ryan (my valentine =D) he makes me happy. which i definitely think is something that i've been needing for a while. my mother has been stressing me, school, friends, acting, music. *sigh* its not that it's too much but it seems so monotoneous lately. i go to bed at 12 (i can't sleep, well sometimes) wake up at 5:45-6, go to school, paint, play music sometimes... it will be more when my band gets going, maybe work, eat, sleep... nothing interesting. well i gues i can't say that, but it just, passe.

but now... i have ryan, well sort of. i asked him to be my valentine today. i really do adore this boy. everything he says is melt-heart. unfortunately im still grounded and i'm scared to ask my mother for the liberty of enjoying friday with him.

i definitely wouldn't mind being with ryan, girlfriend wise. but! it's too early, i think? yeah. that would be silly of me, right? haha. silly standards... why the hell am i thinking about this anyway?

i just finished my third thing of vanilla silk this week... odd. i've never consumed so much of this before, but lately it's been sooo good. i just might go vegan. but i really like icecream. and i know, i can get vagan ice-cream. but! i don't want to go out of my way for it. and i really like cheese. mmmm. yeah, maybe i won't go vegan. i'm a bad ass veggie. haha.

and for todays events... i woke up, took a shower, put my hair in the messiest ponytail possible (it was called cute... blah), went to school. went on a field trip to the vocational school to look at stuff (rather uninteresting)... stayed after and hung out in the art room and made ryan a valentine, dropped audra and sarah off, came home. wrote some poetry. got online, played guitar. ate. now i'm here. boring eh?

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